Where did u grow up?

Wish we grew up on the same advice,

Wish I was there when u still had a heart,

Wish I was in time,

Wish I was there and our time was right.

Make that bed with him, 

Ignore my scent on you,

You made me lose my self control,

Ignore the marks I made.

You made me turn to absurdity,

I looked for darkness,

I tested extremity,

I buzzed through rejection.

I’d still share some with you,

I’ll always share some with you.

We could watch the stars now,

We could be closer than ever,

Look at all those people dance,

Leave it all to chance.

I’ll watch you marry him,

I’ll sing for you,

Someone else will have your babies,

But I’ll have those memories.

And in those memories,

We danced, 

You looked at me,

You smiled,

Bodies tangled,

Hearts mangled.

Hurtsville

Take me back. 

To the couch, in that apartment.

To the time where u were on top of me, and the problems were weighed down.

When I couldn’t feel the disappointment cause there you were.

Your hair all over my face, I couldn’t breathe, but i didn’t wanna move away.

Your hand on mine, your legs on mine, you outlined my body with yours, as much as you could. 

You kissed me.

Cause there I was safe, your phone wasn’t with you, there I had you, all to myself.

The problems, they didn’t exist anymore, as you melted into my skin and bones, you pressed harder, and bent my bones.

“Give me another 5 minutes” I said. You obliged, many times.

I brokedown, it was too damn pretty to be that ugly.

I ignored it, and breathe you in, one last time, knowing after that, things will change forever.

That couch.

Fire up on 16th

You saw demise,
When u looked in my eyes,
I saw truth in lies,
Truth in cries.

I loved you insanely,
Insatiably.

I needed you lustfully,
Tormenting you patiently.

I blamed you endlessly,
You blamed me entirely.

Our faults mere lies,
Our weaknesses mere humanity,
Our faults mere tries,
Our life together mere insanity.

I wonder where you sleep,
I wonder whose heart, now you keep.
I wonder who’s finger you intertwined,
I wonder who’s lap you unwind.

I hold your heart, your bleeding heart,
Your true and blue heart,
I hold it here, in my heart.

MM3.7.14

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